I've taken way bigger risks than posting videos of myself playing the violin...more specifically, playing the violin badly, for instance, flying to Europe alone, moving across country alone, driving hundreds of miles alone to meet, for the first time, a man I hoped to marry. But, this risk seems just as daunting because of the person for whom I've posted these videos.
I've always been able to perform - whether acting, singing or playing - better for complete strangers. For people I know and love, I perform worse because the criticism is worse. That's why I could blow like a beast as a guest worship leader at a church I had never attended, with the congregation seated only a few feet away, gathered around like children begging for candy. But at my own church, standing on a stage, with hundreds of familiar eyes watching, I could barely pull off a 30 second solo of one of our most beloved songs. I was comfortable singing at that lovely Anglican church because I knew I would never see any of those folks again, but folks at my church would have several times during the week to give me the side-eye about Sunday's screw up.
To be fair, I must admit, that has never happened. Everyone always encouraged and applauded anything I threw out at them (except our worship leader, but that was her job, I guess and my family. I rest my case.). Nevertheless, perception is reality.
Regardless, a risk-taker, I am. The greater the risk, the greater the reward and I have been rewarded well. So, I gladly post these crazy videos and hope that any and all who see them will be kind. If not, at least, putting myself on blast will push me to practice, practice, practice. No sights set on Carnegie Hall, but I do intend to play better than I ever did before. Enjoy!
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