He Wants it All Today

Insignificance is a disregard of God's eternal wisdom and creativity.
Insignificance breeds selfishness.
I am who He made, called and equipped to give all that I have, all that I am back to Him.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Z3lyJkYnkzo

Thank you Mrs. A and MJ

Is it possible that I've found my missing link - the lost puzzle piece?
It is becoming clear that the piece was always there.
I just had to turn it around to make it fit.

photo courtesy of mcgpuzzles

Quote of the week

"There are years that ask questions and years that answer."
 -Zora Neale Hurston

An interesting exchange

IG to Dreamlvr: Thought you would enjoy a treatise on fabrics since you are sewing now.  which is your favorite material to work with?  I was devastated when I lost one of my purple cashmere socks.  I searched, and looked, and hunted, and tracked, but never found it.  I enjoy purple. I enjoy cashmere. I enjoy socks.  I'm ecstatic to have all 3 in the same combination.  I guess that puts me in the pornographic art dealing cohort. LOL

Dreamlvr to IG: I'm so sorry you lost your sock.  I know how desperate I felt when I couldn't find one of my vintage black velvet beaded gloves.  I found it, thank God.  Though I'm not sure that I would say that my love of velvet, beading and accessories is pornographic it's certainly very sensual. (I love "s" words for fabric and food...sexy, sumptuous, seductive, salacious)

I love sensual fabrics, stuff with texture, nap as it's called in the sewing world.  Velvet is one.  I also love brocades, rich, silky, heavy as Austrian curtains. You can hide things in brocade, like secrets in plain sight.  A black on black matte brocade with shiny exotic medallions is what I'll be wearing to AW's wedding.  

I also like cotton sateen and brushed cotton.  You don't see brushed cotton much anymore.  It has a nap like velvet, but it's not as carpet-like.  It's more like how a baby chicken feels, soft and feathery but with a dense look. I had a pair of brushed cotton jeans in red once.  I wore them on stage.  The had even more presence than I did.

Promises, promises...

For a long time, I've felt like something huge was missing from my life.  At first, I thought it was my unfinished education.  Maybe if I had finished college I would have done all the things my heart is yearning for because more opportunities would have been available.  Then I thought it was coming from a household of debtors and growing up to be one.  How can I possibly see success when I owe so many people so much?  More recently, I thought the missing element was my very own personality.  I'm not really who people think I am...I'm shy, often lack confidence and my talents, charisma, insightfulness, etc, are nothing compared to that of some of the people I know.  That's it...I need to be somebody different.  Ha! Well, that wasn't it either.
I was desperate and still am.

My daily scripture reading brought me to Romans 4:3,13  

For What saith the scripture? Abraham believed God, and it was counted unto him for righteous          ness...For the promise of that he should be the heir of the world, was not to Abraham, or to his seed through the law, but throught the righteousness of faith.

I realized what really is missing.  Among tears and pleas for mercy, I asked God to fill in the missing piece of my life so that I could live my life, "Lord, tell me my promise!"  Abraham received a promise, so did Noah, Moses and  Joseph and David and Joshua and Rahab and Gideon and Mary and everybody!!! An intimate, singular, unforgettable, exchange between God and a chosen person that revealed God's desire and plan for that person whether in detail or vaguely, whether whole or in part is clearly evidenced throughout scripture.  All these people heard their promises at different times, different seasons, in different ways and had different amounts of time to wait before seeing the promise come to pass.
Why, then haven't I received mine?   Has He already told me and I forgot? Could Moses have forgotten his promise? I highly doubt it.  At a moment like that one discovers the power of God what amazing things a person is capable of when he knows that He has a promise from God.  No, I don't think I forgot.  Perhaps, He told me and I wasn't listening.  Possible.  But as I've prayed over and over again for Him to enlighten me again, why do I hear nothing? I'm certain He wants me to know and wouldn't punish me for not being attentive before.
I don't know...I'm tired and I'm tired and I'm tired. I hope that during Passover, when God kept His promise to Israel and established a nation for Himself and an inheritance for me I will finally have the emptiness filled.  Until then, I will believe God and wait.

John 15:1-9

"Being fruitful is the visible expression of God's invisible work inside of us."

The Lord has just revealed to me that I have a tendency to fall back on my intentions to do His will rather than actually doing His will.  A procrastinating spirit will never bear much fruit.  If God is working inside of me, I owe it to Him to display that work in the world, to demonstrate that I am His by following through.

Sha alu Shalom Yerushalayim - Pray for the Peace of Jerusalem

My new favorite television show...Zola Levitt Presents!  http://www.levitt.tv/media/watch/543-07

This show was part of a ministry started by the late Zola Levitt, a Jewish Christian who for all intensive purposes, led the modern evangelistic ministry to Jews in America and throughout the world. I vaguely remember having watched this show years and years ago.  I am so glad that God allowed me to rediscover it.  I  have always been fascinated by the old testament, (I've read through the Torah - the first 5 books of Moses- at least 3 times) and am passionate about going to the Holy Land one day.

It is no coincidence that Passover comes at the beginning of Spring. I don't think it is a coincidence that I met and ministered to an Israeli man a couple of weeks ago.  Nor is it a coincidence that as a youngster I chose to demonstrate a Seder ceremony to may foreign language class.

As we enter into Spring and the Passover season, I am so excited to study more about God's wonders, the seven Feasts of Israel, old testament law and its fulfillment in the new testament. I don't know how all these things will tie together, but He has wonderful way of unifying truth and experience. The Exodus story, the Redemption Story...they are one in the same.  This is a celebration that the bible says is eternal and Paul exhorts us, yes, Gentiles, to keep.  The Passover lamb of Egypt is the Passover lamb of God, Jesus Christ!

God and Oscar

And the winner has given thanks to the academy, to she who paved the way, to the financiers and lawyers, and the family...Perhaps, God asked, "Where is the love?"

Baby steps are underrated

This has been a phenomenal week. A lot of little things, seemingly unrelated, combine to move me one step closer.

• Put stay-stitches and gathers in the bodice of my gorgeous bridesmaid dress
• Met two prospective clients and encouraged two beautiful women to embrace their natural beauty
• Ministered peace to an angry heart
• Led worship at youth service
• Heard the birds calling to Spring as they pecked the frozen earth
• Lost 3.3 lbs
• Saw a spark in my sister's eyes