Last year death claimed three cousins, an aunt, a best friend and my grandmother. My dad's house burned down and we didn't cook for Thanksgiving for the second year in a row. This year I experienced real betrayal for the first time and for the first time felt real judgment about myself and how I've chosen to live my life. I was jobless and dependant (no longer jobless, but still dependant) not for the first time, but felt ashamed of that fact for the first time. Oh, and this will be year three of Thanksgiving on the fly. Oddly, in the midst of all this Love has found me. I'm not sure I was totally ready for it. I've been working on becoming a healthy person for a long time so that when love came I would be ready. But in the tangle of my experiences I've discovered just as much discouragement as excitement about being in love.
Today I am in love and hopeful, learning to appreciate all the strands being laced together, pulling and tugging on one another, hiding in plain sight. Life is like a bowl of pasta, take a stab at it and savor what you get.